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The Truth about a Family who Lied

 My mother is a queen at lying and she made a lot of things up, she treated me like a mini parrot, I copied her and I angrily saw the world change. I saw the look of paperwork and neglect, this was seen today when I read through what my mother did to someone I care more about each time. I love my nephew, he is my shining light of my life, a memory of a sister I loved dearly.  I am afraid of becoming like my mother, I already felt my anger rise, I wanted to lash out at her, I wanted to punch my own mother. She lied to me, she lied to me for years and yet, here I am facing the fact that I saw someone who truly cared for my sister and wanted to bring her out of her darkness, but my mother wouldn't allow it.  To this point, my own heart lies on the floor and I just stomped on it, because what the fuck was wrong with me for so long? My sister never once deserved what she got, she was bullied by a bitch named Shafali, she was dragged around by my mom to do modeling, which honestly, my si

Welcome to my new life posts

I suppose I need to do this right, I decided to redo this entry as I have no fully explained why I decided to make a blog. The first half is that in all, I feel alone, I don't feel like I have a relationship with the person I thought I loved anymore. I had 11 years of an amazing relationship, but to be thrown away either by myself or by the fact that the person I love views me as drama. So I am just going to be emotionless toward him and his friends from now on.  Maybe if I am empty of all emotions, he will just try to talk to me, I would rather just be blank than deal with this right now. I spent an entire time looking at apartments and I am starting to realize how screwed over I am, I can't live on my own, which means I have to live under the roof with a person who I used to love, but also have to deal with a former friend who comes over and treats me like I am an inconvenience to him and his world.  So I made a decision to never allow myself to emotionally attach myself to a