Welcome to my new life posts
I suppose I need to do this right, I decided to redo this entry as I have no fully explained why I decided to make a blog. The first half is that in all, I feel alone, I don't feel like I have a relationship with the person I thought I loved anymore. I had 11 years of an amazing relationship, but to be thrown away either by myself or by the fact that the person I love views me as drama. So I am just going to be emotionless toward him and his friends from now on. Maybe if I am empty of all emotions, he will just try to talk to me, I would rather just be blank than deal with this right now. I spent an entire time looking at apartments and I am starting to realize how screwed over I am, I can't live on my own, which means I have to live under the roof with a person who I used to love, but also have to deal with a former friend who comes over and treats me like I am an inconvenience to him and his world. So I made a decision to never allow myself to emotionally attach myself to a